Holding on can be so exhausting
I've been doing it since I can remember
always holding things down
so they would not fly away
so they would not crash
so they would not leave me forever
but holding things
all alone
can be so exhausting
and I'm always tired now
cause I can feel I'm about
to let go
Cause I can feel I carry it all by myself
a whole world on my back
so I crash down for them just to exist
and live as I cannot
It has never been a democracy
I'm all alone in my function,
as I am on everything else
Alone
holding things down
so they won't fly away
so they won't crash
so the play won't stop
but I have been so exhausted
and cetic about how things are
cause If my world can't exist for itself
and I can never be free
can I call this 'real world' at all?